12]Good post, intelligent and thoughtful as usual, and I entirely concur with your sentiments.
I'm an atheist because it's the only position that makes sense to me. I grew up in a religious household and for years just accepted the parental pronouncements as received wisdom, until I learned to think for myself. The more I thought about it all the less sense it made. Burning bushes, talking snakes, "thou shalt not kill" followed by a campaign of murder and genocide with divine support and approval... It finally struck me that it doesn't really explain anything. It pretends to, but ultimately it ends up saying there are no explanations for some things beyond the mystical and unsatisfying pronouncement that god did it. To a student of science, as I was at the time (the first one in four generations of my family that we know about), that's anathema, a surrender to never really understanding. I became apostate, a process that was pretty painful both for myself and my parents, but I couldn't honestly do anything else.
I can see that for you it was a big troubling struggle, as I'm sure you felt guilty and left out
of the loop, in your family, as they were travelling in one direction and you, another, as far
as religious belief is concerned.
I hope they eventually accepted you, for who you are, and I'm wondering if they also learned
something from you, or are they very set in their belief, as most believers are. Sometimes
we just have to love one another, even though we believe different things, it's challenging
but educational as well.
I didn't have that problem with my family, they were pretty soft in their beliefs, and I think
they actually thought I was 'on to something', and they would think about it too, as no one
in our family had ever questioned the church, or dared to think they were wrong.
I'm convinced that a good scientific education is likely to be pretty corrosive to religious belief, but given the quality of my life I can't think that it's a bad thing.
I know it isn't a bad thing, we have escaped that trap, and it is kind of scary to think that I
could still be 'there' following along, doing what the church preaches, feeling guilty if I
don't obey their rules, I could have 9 children by now, and that is really scary;-)
We have one life to live, and freedom to take the road we 'truly' believe in is important,
not the road someone else pushes us toward.
I just really want to do it 'my way' in this one beautiful life I have, and I can see that my
daughters appreciate that.
As the true scientist you are, you obviously had to study the bible and other such books, to
thoroughly convince yourself that your ideas satisfy you, and the more you read the more
you cannot possibly go that route, I have never done that, I don't have the need, it wouldn't
make a difference, I am who I am, and I know it is right.
People of all countries are controlled by their governments, we have no power to have the
world live in peace as we would like, and religion is no different, they want to control
the people who believe what they preach, so at least that is one power we can walk away
from, and they can't do anything about it.