Scott Free,
There is no god. Well that is not exactly right. You are your own god. You created you. Reality is an illusion created by your beliefs and thoughts. People and events appear in your illusion to reflect those inner thoughts. It is how we entertain ourselves and grow.
What I said about the voices is true. In a conversation with David Suzuki we discussed the saying that we only use 10% of our brain. If this were true, then our brain would shrink to 10% of its present size from lack of use. It is not that we don't use it, it is that we don't use it consciously. Most of the time there is a constant dialogue going on that we just don't pay any attention to. A bunch of background noise.
In the quiet, if you stop and just listen, you will start to notice that there are many different voices and most of them are not yours. They are the voices of other people in your life (from birth). What they said is imprinted in your brain and when you are not using that brain consciously, they just rattle on. Much of what they say is negative. The reason is that negative stuff seems to have a stronger emotional charge so it has a stronger imprint.
Now, this is where it gets tricky to explain. Your brain is basically the most powerful and complex computer we know of. Its thoughts and beliefs are projected against a screen we call reality and life is played out as a hologram. It is exactly like the Matrix. It is a movie that is generated by the programming of brain. That is what the movie the Matrix was trying to tell us.
Once you wake up to the fact that you are the script writer and the director of this movie, you can make it go in any direction you want it to. But, not too many people know this (although our numbers are growing) so most people create their reality by default. To find out how your computer is programmed, you have to stop and listen to the voices. You will begin to see what the programming is, but, and this is what those in control do not want you to know, you can change the program.
That is what Neo did. He went into the program and changed it. That is why he could do supernatural things within the Matrix - he was no longer bound by the rules of the program. That is what shaman do, yogis do and what the story of Jesus is trying to say. The supposed miracles that he performed were possible because he learned that we are not bound by the programming. We can regain control of it by being consious most of the time. The more you act consciously, the more control you have.
So, what is fear? Fear prevents us from becoming who we are - gods. That is why religion was invented: to instill fear into you, because if you grew to you full potential, you become a threat to those in control. The last thing they want you to know is that you are equal to them, you have the same power as them. Then they cannot control you any more. And they have been controlling you since day one.
Through advertising, education, and religion, they have programmed hundreds of generations of slaves to do their bidding. The entire monetary system is designed to enslave us through debt. Did you not notice that our schools never really taught us anything of any real value. They never taught us how to be in relationship with anybody, how to be critical thinkers, how to do just about anything that would allow us to be free, self sufficient human beings. They just programed us to uphold the staus quo.
The proof is in our politics and our social and religious institutions. You think you know why you rejected religion, but do you really? You think it was because it failed to give you the insight you wanted. It created hypocrites and mind numbing myths. That is only a small part of it. Those were just the obvious outer stuff. Deep down you know that in reality you rebelled against its attempts to enslave you, to control your mind, to make you feel small and insignificant.
But you are much greater than that and some part of you is becoming aware of that. You are an extremely powerful being, capable of creating worlds. They may be just in your head, but everybody's world is just in their head. That is a basic tenant of Buddhism, that life is but a dream. You are the dreamer. All the pain and suffering in your world can be alleviated by you waking up to the fact that you can control the dream.
Now you may be beginning to see why this information is dangerous in our hands. The controllers will try to bring you back into the program. That is why this information had to be hidden in a movie. Only those who are ready to take back their power saw it, and believe me, thousands did. There are thousands of articles and books that have been written about it. I am not making this up. It is out there and it is not that hard to find.
It has nothing to do with gods or religion and everything to do with psychology. Questioning the status quo is the first step. Do your research, it helps focus your mind and your intent. Listen to your programming. It will show yu why your life is the way it is. It will help you understand your anger about religion - it is well founded. Then you will be ready to reprogram your brain so that you are in control of the dream again.
What I said in my last post was to feel you out, find out where you are and where you came from. I think you are ready for the next step in your journey. You just have to decide whether you are going to just idle about where you are or are you going to set out on the adventure of your life. It is up to you. It always was. They just didn't want you to know it (for obvious reasons).