what am i dong wrong? God dont help me, He dont help me, He dont listen to my prairs, i am alone, i sinn more and more . i did something wrong but dont want to go wrong way but is on wrong way.
i dissapoited God. i am ****ed up. i am not good enouth. i knew God will drop me. i knew God dont want me, and surely He dont help me. He dont hear my prairs, even i know i am sorry i ask for help/ forgiveness, i know i mean it out of my heart, but He dont resuce me. He dont want me. because i know i ask Him for help, i know i ask Him to save me. i know i dont lie when i say my hert ist true when i ask forgiveness/ help. but God do nothing, so what did i do wrong?
One option would be to jump out of an airplane with a parachute with training being only to show you where the pull-cord is, to see if you pull the cord correctly before hitting the ground.
Ever have ancestors from Europe come here so hostile from the crap they were leaving being that to be here they would live outside Edson Alberta and eat boiled cabbage plus the cheapest boiled meat plus take on a foster-kid in order to ...
... to do what?
Get away from it all?
Make a better life?
I seriously guarantee to you on a mathematical level that if you figure out a way to make the flow of money around you go for the people around you to enable them to be less stressed as they spend the money back on you, then it will cost less than putting up American-style walled-suburbs.
Develop a skill. (i.e. hammer steel into wheels and spokes)
Find a group around your moral-way-of-thinking where they do everything except what you do, such that you can add to the picture.
Most important is be around reliable food-producers. Go ahead and make the growers feel like they're rich. It doesn't mean you can't trade between each other once fed.
Did you know that Monsanto is trying to patent God-DNA?
It means Monsanto is either a puppet of Lucifer, or it's populated by brain-damaged puppets of Lucifer being told that they will be the first to be eaten in hell if they don't figured out a way to bribe and/or terrify and/or blackmail members of the Supreme Court of the USA into saying that it's okay for a dumb-**** MBA to claim ownership of a DNA sequence God already had created.
Problem is... we know it was already there before they discovered it, so they can't claim it that way.
If you want to use the American legal system to bring about (what was the colour of that horse of famine?), I would recommend another.