I am deeply sorry to hear of your troubles china. We've had our differences here, and I often don't understand you, but this one's pretty clear. You were feeling betrayed and wounded, and I can't imagine you deserving that. But alas, we all have our own private demons, and how we grapple with them will forever define who we are to ourselves in ways other people can never know. I've been there, betrayal, separation, and divorce, and some things about it will never be alright, but I'm alright, and so will you be. Some ugly stuff to get through in the meantime, and sometimes it looks endless, but it's not. You can do it, and you'll be a better man for having done it. I wish you well.
All of which is by way of answering your question in the OP, "do you love me," with this: I don't know you personally, but in the abstract, as a suffering fellow human, yes I do.
All of which is by way of answering your question in the OP, "do you love me," with this: I don't know you personally, but in the abstract, as a suffering fellow human, yes I do.