Killer loved guns, hated people
Web diary on Goths website, photos show insight
Sep. 14, 2006. 05:43 AM
PHINJO GOMBU
STAFF REPORTER
The last online posting by Kimveer Gill on a website that is a popular gathering place for Goths is eerily time-stamped 10:41 a.m. yesterday — about two hours before Gill was shot dead by Montreal police officers at Dawson College.
In it, Gill describes little of how the events of the day are going to unfold — instead focusing on how whiskey tastes so good in the morning. There's a throwaway footnote that when he calls people "niggahs" in my journals ... it doesn't have to do anything with their skin colour.
"I call white people niggahs too, it's just fun," he writes.
But in a detailed user profile, asked how he wants to die, he wrote in prescient foreshadowing of yesterday's bloody events in Montreal: "Like Romeo and Juliet — or in a hail of gunfire."
The website
http://www.vampirefreaks.com, which the Star found last night, reveals Gill as a lonely, conflicted, self-described 25-year-old Goth freak from Montreal who hated authority figures like police, principals and teachers and singled out "jocks" for high school bullying.
On the website's welcoming home page is a picture of the Laval resident, his eyes, shaded by his hands, staring intently into the camera.
Other pictures on another website show him wearing a black trench coat, holding a semi-automatic rifle with the caption "Ready for action," beneath it.
Other online postings showed that Gill, who described Natural Born Killers, as his favourite movie, was a fan of the Tec-9 semi-automatic handgun, lamenting that it was not legal in Canada.
Writing in the third person, Gill described himself to fellow Goths as someone "you will come to know as Trench," a chilling reference that was cited again and again by witnesses who described the man that shot at them yesterday.
"He is male. He is 25 years of age. He lives in Quebec. He finds that it is an okay place to live. He is not a people person. He has met a handful of people in his life who are decent.
But he finds the vast majority to be worthless, no good, conniving, betraying, lieing (sic), deceptive, mother-------.
"Work sucks ... school sucks ... life sucks ... what else can I say?
"Metal and Goth kick ass. Life is a video game, you've got to die sometime.''
A cached version of the webpage shows a tombstone with the name "Kimveer'' on it.
Below his name is the epitaph that goes: "Lived fast died young. Left a mangled corpse.''
In a detailed user profile that usually accompanies the web pages of various members, Gill revealed that he was born on July 9, 1981 in Montreal of Indian heritage with a weakness for laziness and a fear of nothing.
His goal for this year was to stay alive with a self-deprecating dig at his most overused phrase on instant messenger being "Heavy Metal Rulez."
He said he goes to bed whenever he's tired and his first thought upon waking is that he's tired, although he doesn't care much for coffee.
He wrote that he misses being young, hadn't gone out for a date in a month, wore combat boots that day and loved being covered in black clothing.
Gill's web handle, or the name by which he was known to other users of the website, is Fatality666.
A quick perusal of Gill's online diary shows that just hours before he posted his final entry, he was revealing very little of what he was going to be doing within the next hours to come.
At 3.33 a.m., he writes: "As you can tell, I got nothing of importrance (sic) to write about today. Poor me."
And then he goes on to describe his mundane pleasures such as eating freezies and flirting with girls — asking them if they are feeling down and want to play with him.
He expresses frustration at having to wait for his contact lenses to dry.
On Tuesday, a day earlier, at 5 a.m. Gill launched a tirade against authority figures.
"It's not only the bullies fault, but the principal's fault for turning a blind eye ... it's the police's fault for not doing anything when people complain (ooooops) my mistake, the cops are corrupt sons of whores, so it's not like they can do anything about it. F--- the police.
Gill then added that he was disgusted at society, which allowed people to behave like "assholes" to each other.
"Society disgusts me," he wrote.
Clearly Gill wasn't getting much sleep because only four hours earlier at 12.56 a.m., he posted the stark message: "F--- people, F--- Life."
His blog also reveals that Gill was a fan of the video game series Postal, a controversial and violent program in which the goal is to endure slights and insults without going beserk.