I've done it and try not to.
It leaves me with a feeling like I just told a kid there is no Santa Claus.But here goes;
Faith in this day and age is a misnomer.
It's just another word for I am trying to understand because I think it might be my duty to.
Or the cruder ,I'm trying to believe in the supernatural because I want things.
I know most of the bible sounds like a comic book and I don't want to settle for it being a metaphor ,because it will take any hope of these things I want not to happen, or happen.
It's like it can solve anything. And just because it never does , does not mean it isn't true.
I want there to be a super guy out there helping me and I don't want to think of alternatives other than the tried and true.
One sec....uhm, ok so it has been tried and never came true except in really stretch it out coincidence, but that doesn't matter to me, I want this to be true.
Think of it, your own personal Jesus..lol..did I just steak that line or did I just have an epiphany ?
Prayer really helps me when I'm frightened and see no light at the end of the tunnel.
Enough already!
If any of the above rings true to you , you need to try this .
Turn your back on this god of yours.
Try and live without it like it's tobacco.
Find out that maybe you are more of a creature than meets the eye and certain events that took place in your life had everything to do with you and your mind and will power.
Buddha said this,"Do not look to any god or demon to help you for they cannot. Even I cannot help you"
Even though every Buddhist knows this , check out the millions paying for fake money to be burnt in front of Buddhist temples and incense burnt as offerings in order to ask for favor.
It's like Buddha knew that eventually if this one edict stuck in the cacophony of teachings that would follow his death, some would get what he really was all about.
The myth of him leaving royalty (ugh the humanity!) to live as a wanderer another edict that if stuck would lead us to the reality of total non attachment. Absolute power over beings in exchange for total freedom.
In any case, as the tacky piece of plastic hanging on this beautiful but dreadfully boring girl's toilet i once read long ago,"If you let her go and she comes back you have her". Egads, my memory fades, what was that saying? anyone?
Let your faith go, live without it for , ok how about 40 days and 40 nights, and see what becomes of your life.
Take it as a testament to you being you.