But behind all that, the reason you feel the way you do is because the choice you have has been granted free of charge.
Yet, within you lies a moral campus that whether you realize it or not, guides your decision making.
I choose to identify who, what that moral compass is and choose to live by its guidelines for the good.
I can not judge God by what evil mankind had done, but only by what good mankind has done.
My Moral compass was designed around what I was taught through my parents, family, friends and experiences through my life.
My understanding of right and wrong doesn't come from a paticular spiritual entity, for me, it comes from
"Do onto others as you would have them do onto you." ~ Whether or not that came from any relgion or not, it is a universal understanding for any human that can read english or the translation of it.
You and I know what hurts, both emotionally and physically, and if we do not like those things happening to us, then the logical course of action is not to do those things to other people, regardless of how much we might hate or differ from them.
As in my animal example, animals also have this moral compass, although not as easy to measure. There are many creatures on this planet which live perfectly fine in their own communities, with their own leaderships and ways of living. If they had no understanding of rules and how to opperate in a pack/clan/tribe/school/etc. then they very well would probably be killing one another to gain a foothold, they might eat out all their resources, they would have no order, and thus, they would not be in packs or families..... they would be isolated from one another in order to survive.
We are not much different in this aspect of life. We have our own sets of laws and rules in each of our societies. Those who break them are punished or taken out of the public so the rest of the public can remain safe. If we did nothing to those who broke the laws/rules that our societies built, then nobody would feel safe or secure in those societies, and thus, they would begin to isolate themselves away from those dangers.
I imagine you, like myself, have seen many examples of people who claimed they were acting on their religious beliefs or that
"God told them to do it" where they harmed or killed another person based on their interpretations of what God wants..... while on the other hand, there are people who don't believe in any religion or God, who can treat others with the greatest respect and kindness.
And on the flip side, you can still have religious people do really great things, but someone who doesn't believe in something might do harm or kill.
Religions in my view, I can admit, they can do some good.... but an individual's ability to do good or bad isn't bound to a religion..... if that was the case, then there wouldn't have been any Holy Crusades, there wouldn't be any Jihads, there wouldn't have been Witch Persecutions, the fighting between Catholics/Prodistans in Ireland might not have ever gotten as bad as it did..... Israel...... Palestine.... etc.
Sure perhaps all those people might end up going to hell in the end for being evil and bad for each reason they acted violently towards their fellow man, but that doesn't solve the problems the living still have to go through.
Once again, I may sound like I'm attacking your faith, but I have no issue on what other's believe in, I can only explain my own point of view. As mentioned before
"Do onto others as you would have them do onto you" ~ And I'm not about to attempt to force my beliefs on you, just as I would expect you not to do the same...... but sharing one another's point of view never hurt.
I am only trying to express my first hand experiences on the matter, and through my history of being a Roman Catholic, the faith only raised more and more questions without ever answering any I found important. Eventually I decided to seek my own answers by collectively merging all the faiths, concepts and scientific explinations into one large overall understanding and go from there.
They all claim to hold the truths, and to a degree, they all do..... but each also holds onto some false information, science included. The divisions between each belief and their claims of "Being the only truth" have devided each faith from one another so much, that nobody is willing to take their common beliefs and put the pieces together to get the bigger picture of why we exist and why we are here.