Curiosity
Dear Curosity
Through the accumulation of experiences you think that you will realise Truth. One experience which creates in your mind either great love or a desire for understanding, which shakes the very foundation of your consciousness of individuality, is true experience. One such experience contains the whole significance of life. An experience of love or of death contains the whole of life, but to understand the full significance of that experience you must be concentrated in self-recollectedness.Take the experience of love. In that there is the desire to possess, there is envy, jealousy, loneliness, and also the joy of union. By being concentrated,watching all the time, reflecting, you can realise the full significance of that one particular experience, and through that you have understood the whole of experience.Or take death. In death there is sorrow, pain, frightful loneliness, the desire to be united with the lost one, the desire for sympathy and love. This is one of the most common experiences of life. Everyone has it. Instead of gathering the
significance of it, the full lesson of it, you seek comfort. You seek guides to the astral plane, you desire to be united there with your loved ones. You hope for their rebirth. All this is but postponement of effort to liberate selfconsciousness.The struggle to adjust loneliness and love is not to be won by pushing out further into other realms, but by constant self-recollectedness.
Thus one experience can open up to you the whole significance of
completeness. This is not mere intellectual reasoning. I speak from personal
experience. When you are in great sorrow, in loneliness because of death, you are not satisfied with transient consolations, whether in the future or of the past; you want to find out the immediate solution of loneliness and therefore to conquer sorrow.
To conquer sorrow you must realise that inward completeness of being by
becoming reflective every moment of the day, not in sentiment nor by pushing all those things of which you are afraid into the background. That completeness which is in everything becomes real, and in that alone there is happiness, not in
transient pleasures.Many people think that Truth is to be realized by withdrawing from the world. Man is caught up in action, and he seeks refuge by the flight from life into romanticism, imagination, and illusion. But to be in action and yet to have freedom for thought is true solitude; the solitude, not of weariness, of fright, but the solitude of real joy. In that solitude you learn to adjust your various conflicts of emotion and thought, so that you may be able to withstand the constant effect of action. When you have achieved this inward solitude, there will follow the cessation of reflection, leading to effortless contemplation. From this contemplation comes the harmony of reason and love, and from that follows awareness, the intuition which is constant, in which there is neither separation nor unity. This is the liberation of mind and heart.The realization of Truth is the only assurance of happiness. Life is its own creator and creation, in which there is no division of “you” and “I”. You cannot objectify Life and look to that object for your inspiration, for your well-being; for completeness lies in all things, in every individual. In the realization of that completeness which is Life itself is the assurance of tranquility, of the cessation of conflict, the liberation of mind and heart. So the idea that you, the individual,are a subject proceeding to an object through experience, an object external to yourself, is the negation of that Reality which exists in you in completeness.
Throughout the world man has objectified Truth, and thereby regards himself as separate from it, ever progressing towards that Truth. In other words, he has conceived Truth to be not eternal, indwelling, but rather something outside of himself to which he must grow through an accumulation of virtues, qualities and attributes.
Truth is without qualities. That which is eternal, which is without any
quality, can only be realized when there is in each individual the absolute
cessation of all particularity, of self-consciousness. Man is self-conscious,
looking at life from his own narrow, limited, egotistical point of view; but in
being free of that self-consciousness is the realization of Truth. A man who
desires to realize Truth must, through self-recollectedness, through great
effort, transcend that consciousness which is the centre of qualities. This will
assure him of that tranquility which will give him the capacity to judge for
himself the true value of all things. This is illumination. A man who knows the
true worth of things, of ideas, becomes free of them all. To know this you must be free from the bondages of so-called civilization. Be free in yourself and you will love your neighbor.
From self-recollectedness, then, there follows true behaviour, true action,
and from true action there comes simplicity of life. That simplicity is not
crudeness, but the understanding of true values, from which follows freedom.
Behaviour, conduct, springs from a true outlook, from the true balance of reason and affection. The man who is hampered, limited, worried by those things which are unessential, cannot liberate his mind and think impersonally, and so be free from the limitations of tradition, custom, and from the love which is hedged about by the particular, in which there is a consciousness of “you and I”, “mine and yours”.
When you have the purpose, the care to find out the true cause of sorrow
and suffering, there will come the desire to be free of limitation and to realize Truth which is ever existing, self-caused in all things.
All this will be a superficial intellectual theory, so long as you do not put it
into practice. It is not a theory to me. It is what I have realized, what to me is the highest Reality, the perfect balance of reason and of love.
I love ,I am.