You can think and say what you like, that's fine, I can't control that. But what I can do is recognize it for what it is, and I hope that whatever is going on in your life straightens itself out. You seem a very angry bitter person, there are resources that can help you work through these kinds of issues, I hope you seek them out.
By the way, did you have a chance to look through your textbooks yet to find that information on the life threatening bacteria that lurks in disposable face masks? I am still curious to read about that. I ask because I can find no mention of this life threatening bacteria on the internet.