In a way, it's like the video that's out there that shows the Paul Walker accident. I don't have any desire to watch it, as I know that two people are dead (dying?) while the car is on fire. It's a horrible enough death that I don't need to watch it "live".
I watched one of them because of the screen cap. Looked like a fireball from a movie. The video did indeed look a lot like that. More irony considering the victim. How many similar explosions had he pretended to escape from or been near only to die in the real thing? Unfortunate.
I had a discussion about this with a friend of mine. She said that videos of things like that scare her the most. Car wrecks, things like that where you dont see the people inside. Its the opposite for me. I watched 9/11 on tv when I was 13. It wasnt til a year later when it was actually said "when you see that plane go into that building you are watching hundreds of people die in an instant." In the back of my mind I already knew that but it wasnt til then that it really sank in. That line goes through my head every time Ive seen those images since then and when I see things like this crash. Without that thought its just another fireball like in the movies.
Listening to a tape of guns going off and people screaming and dying - no need for that line to go through anyones head. You know whats going on on an individual level. Things like that or the video clips from Columbine those are far more difficult for me because they show exactly what is going on.