Myself I believe in a Creator. This life is just part of the journey. One ends, the next adventure begins.
Who knows what the Creator plans for the next step in the journey.
I also believe in Jesus. I also believe that the Creator gave us a map and a plan. So blaming God for this, that or whatever is futile as we were given Free Will.http://
Yeah, me too. Myself, I call him Father. I know what you mean about the reformed, I was that way too,
for about a minute, but I was disgusted with myself. I quit smoking, (drinking, not so much) and am disgusted by the anti smoking zealots too. I've been asked if I'm a Christian, (as if its their business), and I answer, yes, just not a particularly good one, but I am faithful, or try to be.
I don't normally wade into these conversations because it always ends up in a futile dispute between believers and disbelievers. The most virulent athiests tend to be disgruntled Catholics. I come from a mixed Irish orange and green heritage, which made family gatherings a bit awkward. I now know it had nothing to do with spirituality but the use of religion as a means of motivation for hate as an imputus to gain power. But I won't dwell on that.
I don't know what the answers are, but I have looked death squarely in the eye, and have tasted the, as a former boss put it, "that sh!tty brown taste in your mouth", which I later found out was from adrenalin. I have also seen some things that have been really, really spookey, which had saved me from me meeting the great beyond, more than once, with the details only shared with my wife.
So, yes, I believe there is something far greater than us out there, leaving us to our own devices. Why I was saved, I have no idea, I am nobody special.