Hello, everyone!
I would like to share with you a fantastic experience that I had two days ago. I had another initiation with my Volkhv and in the course of it... well, it might sound hard to believe, but I actually saw our Gods. I saw them with my own eyes. It was already at the end of the initiation, at about four in the morning. We went out to our place of worshp, where all the Idols are standing in a stone circle. And as I entered the circle I saw the wooden Idols come to life, and I saw Gods show themselves to me through these Idols. When I mentioned this to my Volkhv, he told me - go on, then, talk to them. And I walked all over the cicle, talking to each God, as they called to me, one at a time. They actually did call out to me, every God of our pantheon! I talked to everyone of them, but there are several that I remember especially well. First it was Veles, our most revered God. His call was the most powerful, it was like he was pulling me to him, in order to take a good look at me. Then Mokosh, the Goddess of Earth. When I came up to her, the feeling I had was so intense, that the whole world seemed to shift for a couple of seconds. I felt her power, and it was so immense, so benevolent, like she was holding me to her. And then I felt the call of Lel, the God of Love. I came up to him, and though he did call me, he seemed not very willing to talk to me, so I addressed him myself, asking him for help. And he looked at me in a kind of an arch way, and told me - it's going to be fine, go on now! And so I went on to the other Gods. On of the Gods, Cherbog, the God of Protection, he was kind of hiding himself from me for a time. Each time I finished speaking to one of the Gods, I'd say to myself - now it's time to come up to Cherbog. But then something inside me would say that it is not the time yet, and then some other God would call to me. So Cherbog was the last one I came up to, he kind of sealed off my talk to the Gods. I was so impressed by this, and I was so delighted! I mean, I am not a priestess, I am nothing of the kind. I am just an ordinary person, leading an ordinary life, having my mundane cares, and duties, and joys and troubles. And all the Gods came down especially on purpose to take a look at me, and to talk to me! That night I truly felt that I am their Daughter, and that I belong to them.
And after we left the place of worship my Volkhv performed a special shamanic ritual for me. I don't know what it's called in English, in Russian it is called "kamlanie". It is when a Shaman beats a special kind of tambourine, calling to the Spirits. And before and after this ritual he rang a special kind of bell. And I just felt myself flying back from the realms I was travelling to the sound of that bell.
That was an awesome experience for me.