So this is your crutch.
He is the end of the chain; from Him everything issued. God is the First and Eternal One.
This is a known logical problem of the hen and the egg: every egg has come from an hen; and there must be an end of this chain: hen that produced all this chain of eggs and hens, or else there will be no such a chain.
So then where is your evidence of god?
I can see an egg and I can see a hen. I cannot see a god. There isn't one shred of evidence for god - not one! Not even a little! Not even a tiny tiny little bit! In point of fact there is absolutely not one infinitesimal shred of evidence for god!
So how come I can see a chicken and I can see an egg but god "the maker of everything" is impossible to see? Where the hell is he?
If your god "just exists" then why can't the universe "just exist?" It has been shown by science that it does just exist! It has been shown no maker is needed.
You claim there is a god but that makes everything so much more complicated!!! How can god be first but the universe cannot be? Everything points to the universe being first. There is no trace of your god but the universe is all around us! How can that be if what you're saying is true?
Why do you think god must be first and the universe can't be first? You insist on this yet there is not the least tiny trace of your god! The universe is right here - plane to see! Tests have clearly shown your prayers, your visions, the voices you hear, the things you see all come from you and your desire to believe in something that does not exist!! How absurd! They are your delusions! Yet you cling to them and you cling to an imaginary god! Why? How does this help you? What purpose do you get from carrying around this god thing inside your head?
It is an awful affliction you have. I know. I had it once.
The fact is that the universe being here is a mystery. The idea of god does not make that mystery any less of a mystery because then it must be asked who made god?
You say god just is; he was the first.
I say the universe is; it was first.
My evidence is all around you.
Where is your evidence?