Dear AJ,
Your condition seems to be deteriorating.
Even your cohort, or "similitude" as you are fond of noting, is concerned about your fixations. Given our friend in RED DEER is perhaps only a notch up on the scale of living in the real world, perhaps you and MHz could seek a private corner to discuss a return to sanity and an escape from this increasingly worrying decline into RELIGIOUS PSYCHOSIS.
There are places you and MHz could get together at. Hope the straight-jackets aren't too tight.
Gotta love ya my friend, sorry you can't seem to find the spiritual end of the spectrum to justify that there is one spiritual God.
You might have read enough about God and might have come close, but you never got it.
Again and again you are given opportunities, by your participation on this forum to really come to get that which you don't have, which you could off had, had you a little bit of faith in God.
I for one don't expect any religious requirements from you in order for you to have faith in God, for that is something between you and Him.
I do try to present God to the world as I try to bring into subjection the desires of the flesh to conform with His attributes.
Mainly love and forgiveness.
If I love God, then the world means nothing.
If I love my neighbor, then mankind means everything.
Peace>>>AJ