The moment you forgive consciously, your mind seeks to strengthen itself from the ordeal of hurt. I believe you said.
Compassion, is first an idea of the mind, then it must be an enlarging event in the heart sequentially to feel its ramifications on self and on others. As a Christian my soul is the filter of all things of my heart, it brings to fruition the fullness of His glory toward others, as it is the example of Christ in me.
My mind will often recall for me any past offense or any past defense. It will strive to filter all of my reactions to mankind today. My mind also has and will often cause me to second guess or question the validity of the truth of my decision for Christ.
This unending struggle has gone on and will go on for years. Alas, I know. I must forgive as He has forgiven me.
Satan has power only my mind attempting to disrupt my work for God, while I seek to show His Compassion, Forbearance, Humility and Servitude. I must remain ever Thankful to Him and develop daily my willingness to spread the Word of God in Love.
It is a quest and yes, a battle. Sometimes I overcome, sometimes I struggle to seeming futility. The Spirit of God though remains strong in my soul reinforcing me, keeping that filter of His vigilant, always aware, always alert.
I watch for those who would seek to destroy this relationship-worth more than any gold or gemstones.
