I am a sincere Christian, Protestant, Conservative in my Faith. I will apologize in advance for this but I want to confess this sin that I have struggled with since I was very young. The spirit had finally releived me of this tormenting desire. I cannot rationalize it or delude myself to justify it. I know it is wrong. I am not an alcoholic, or addicted to cocain though it's power over me is just as bad. I can only use the process of sanctification and I do stop myself on occasion and am able to refocus of other things. Though this sin does not hurt others, my body is not my own it is the temple of the Holy Spirit. Perhaps I am sharing this hoping for someone to tell me this is not a problem but in my presbyterian faith I know that Man is so depraved that it is only under the influence of the Holy Spirit that we can even turn and place our faith in God. I know that sin is sin no matter what it is because God's Judgement is absolute. Though women may do this all the time Most do not do it out of some sick addiction. Why could I not be stuck on something else I do not know. At times it is very difficult, but through sanctification the spirit does seem to have been bringing me some relief, a lessening of desire. Yet every day I am confronted and reminded and it is because it is an issue of gender and cross-dressing. God has made me a man, no question about that, I am heterosexual. But I am sensitive and envy women at times. I love to tinker, and work on things, but I have this perversion tormenting me at my core. There, I have confessed. Like an alcoholic keeping a bottle in a shadow box on the wall, my "wardrobe" is in my closet. Why throw it out when in a moment of weakness I might order more online? Better to repent and to pray that it be burned out of my thoughts, that I be relieved of this desire, and be about God's work for me as my first priority with my full devotion. Comments?
