Quote: Originally Posted by hermite
Just checking in to let you know I'm okay. Having to clean up the horrible mess of glass as well as figure out how to secure my front door, I got behind in my other chores so I haven't been online much.Quote has been trimmed, See full post:
I am truly grateful for your concern. Just so you know, I have a couple of friends here who call me every day to check on me.
I don't have a gun but heating with wood I do have several hatchets and axes.
I'm doing what I can now to soothe my mind and nerves. That means just reading a bunch of stuff online. Trying to figure out exactly what to do next. I certainly don't want to hurt anyone. But I know I have to protect myself.
I love all the virtual hugs and flowers that so many of you have sent. It REALLY does help. And as someone said, if you look at the statistics on the home page you can see that I do at least stop by every day and read what everyone is talking about. UFO's, Stevie, music, books, I enjoy reading everything I can to keep my mind off of my situation. Dwelling on it is just too draining. So, keep up the lively conversation, eh.
I don't know what happened to you, nor do I wish to ask publically (You don't have to explain, I got the gist from your post)
It certainly can suck to go through a situation as you had to, and sometimes it can dwell in your head once in a while without even trying.
I know when I had an attack situation or when my home burned down around me at age 9, that things like that can really screw with you at times.
I know when I walk home after work, I still get flashbacks of when I got jumped a couple of years back. Not that I get scared, since I did sorta do more damage to them then they did to me (It shouldn't have happened in the first place) but I get so pissed off on what I should have done, as I think of the things I did do. Most times I feel I didn't do enough.
Then again, maybe I did exactly what I was supposed to do.
But for me, those things never go away...... they just become a part of you. Our lives are always changing beyond what we sometimes plan for or expect. For me, I can only take those experiences/situations and try to take the good things that I can from them.
Even if it feels like there's nothing you can take from them that is good, there is always taking the knowlege of what you feel you should do the next time.
I don't know if you were talking about something totally different, but it sounds like you went through a moment in your like such as one of the above that screw with your mind......
Just glad to know you've made it through to see another day. Keep your chin up
Oh and I got myself a decent knife collection.... go figure