I call jealousy the petit insanity and is based on insecurity within your situation.
You would agree if you sat in on the battered men and women group I meet with weekly. Apart from addiction - jealousy plays a major role in some of the most basic trouble we get into when we allow ourselves to become servants of this disabling force.
You are the only one who can remove yourself from the ugliness and urge of worthlessness in which you place yourself if you:
(a)Settle for someone else who sleeps around - notwithstanding you are up for 'sharing of disease' as well as love.
(b)Settle with the belief that you aren't worth a total commitment from a male you find attractive and are willing to keep yourself totally devoted to him alone.
Set your standards high Vereya - don't compromise yourself with men who have no control or desire to have commitment - the relationships go nowhere and if they do - are only temporary and filled with doubt and unhappiness. Hookers are available or women who enjoy sex with no strings with many guys...if a guy bases his friendships on sex.
There are many relationships based on friendship - don't always read permanent into them - enjoy the friend for who he is and what he enjoys which you can share - but sharing your body is a whole other relationship. Very few long term relationships can be based on sexuality alone. There really are men out there looking for a stable woman to enjoy having compaionship and sex with, in a monogamous and respecting way. They are beautiful if you find one. Magnificent males.
You are worth more - and until you believe that - you will always feel second hand and allow yourself to be treated that way.
Last edited by Curiosity; Oct 1st, 2007 at 07:29 AM..Reason: More thoughts to add...